Hot Date (with myself)

Today started out slow... foggy and slow. I am weening myself off of caffeine slowly, but surely. For sleeping reasons, or non-sleeping I should say. Anyhow, this was the cause for the slow and fogginess. Around noon Chloe decided to push snooze on her day and I asked Papa if I could slip out and have a date with myself. I started by taking the laundry to the laundry mat and then cleaning out my van (boring date so far)... but, then, I got all romantic and decided to take myself downtown and to a romantic movie. I saw a sweet little film and bought myself some chocolate and a tiny bit of wine for the show. I even held my hand;) Coming home was so sweet after a day away. Everyone missed Mama and I felt whole again. All love, all around.

cleaning, cooking, and cuteness...

This lovely friday morning I got up, got Chloe and I cute, left her with her Papa and went for a sweet breakfast with the ladies. The littlest lady, Lulu, decided to come home with me while her mommy did yoga. We bought some cookie makings and got to making and baking. We made cookies, ate a few and chatted as much as a 30 and 4 year old could till Chloe and Benny came home. Then we all did our silly things till her mommy came, all red faced and happy and picked her up. She didn't want to go (the greatest honor a 4 year old can bestow) but, went anyway. Chloe slept and I got to cleaning. Cleaned it all and over and under. Now, I am going to make a special treat for our lovely neighbors and then a quite, quite, magazine reading night... (fingers crossed)

nothing, nothing, nothing, then... two in one day!

Yay! I'm back in my comfortable computer chair taking off into cyberspace. Today we walked and walked and walked. Over the hills and through the ... well, shops of State street. Now we're back. With Pale Ales and stories to tell. Once upon a time, in a little village market, a lady asked the shop keep if he had any goat cheese... the shop keep looked around and said "why, yes, we just got some in today, as fresh as could be!" Everybody wins! The end.

got to busy with life to blog about it...

I suppose that's a good thing.. Living loudly and not taking a moment to reflect sometimes. So, the last time I wrote was Saturday, Sep. 5... so, pretty much as soon as I typed the final period we took off for Long Beach. We were headed for an "anniversaburn" party... these beautiful friends of ours got married the year after us at the burn. They, too, have had a sweet baby since, so all of us were home instead of in the middle of the desert with our hearts and souls. We got to their place, did some prep. work and had a party. They built a small wooden women to burn in place of the man and we danced and had amazing foods. Then, later in the night, we logged on to a live feed of the actual burn and we all watched the man burn together. We stayed at their place that night, had breakfast with them in the morning, I dropped Benny off at the train station to hop a train back to Santa Barbara because I wasn't quite done with my Long Beach trip. I headed over to my folks house, who were out of town for the weekend, and spent the night at their place all alone, just Chloe and I, which was really sweet. They came home the next morning and we spent the day together. Some friends, upon hearing we were in town, invited us to a pool party, so my mom, Chloe and I went over. Then both my folks, Chloe and I went out to dinner (their treat;). After dinner we all went for a walk in Seal Beach (a quaint little beachy town) and a playground for Chloe. We spent that night at their place again and then had brunch with my grandma and her sister, Aunt Marvel, in the midmorning. By then, it was Tuesday and we were ready to head back to SB, missing Papa. Chloe slept for most of the ride even though I got off at sepulvada and headed up through L.A., Melrose, Hollywood and eventually found my way to the 101 North. It was interesting, to say the least. We eventually got home and had a sweet quiet night with Benny. Wednesday was mostly about working on the farm again. I finally got paid this time, for all of it, so it felt really rewarding. Chloe loves going to the farm and all the people that come by. We got home around 6 in the evening and had another sweet evening. Now it's thursday around 9am and Chloe is still sleeping! She is doing a lot of growing these days, so it must take a lot out of her. more to come...

Yesterday I forgot, so today I'll make up for it...again

Yesterday was Friday and it was mostly about working on a farm. Chloe and I went to a friends farm to work the produce stand. We met some great folks and came home with tons of produce. Tomatoes out the wazoo... melons, strawberries, cucumbers oh my! Then we came home, kissed Papa, cleaned up (well) and went to a party... a birthday party... your birthday party... Happy Birthday Darling! just kidding. Our dear friend, Elise, had a pool party complete with sweet friends and foods and drinks. We then came home to find Uncle Chippo and Auntie Nikki hanging out on the front porch! Yay! Chloe went to sleep and we giggled and Boggled till we couldn't Boggle no more. Sweet, Sweet day!

Flow

There was an ebb this week, so now, the flow. Two blogs in one day. Though, day is now night and babyhead and Papa are fast asleep in dreamland. I wanted to add the grateful bit so as not to forget what this is all about. Todays things to be grateful for:

1. Meeting Benny when I did and the way we did...

2. making plans

3. breaking plans

4. to know that amazing inspiration is always just a click away

5. this chick up top

4 lovely years!

So, I haven't written in a few days, but this is a big one! Today marks four years in our strange and beautiful marriage. Benny and I met on halloween of 2004 (he was a snowflake and I was a nerd)... It was a brief encounter, but I thought he was really handsome and those eyes, Ben has the most sincere, honest eyes I've ever fallen into. We met once again on new years eve at his apartment party... so special. Once more at my kung-fu inspired 25th birthday party. A fourth time at Johnny's house as he was telling us he may soon be a father (a very auspicious encounter)... The fifth and final, for awhile, meeting was Tonys annual LOVE FEST. Said Johnny and I spent the night at Bens apartment, then in Santa Barbara. It was one of the more lovely weekends I can remember. Upon returning home I wrote Ben a fateful letter which snowballed into a pen pal-ship. We wrote amazing letters back and fourth and basically fell in love in writing. In one fantastically penned note he added his digits and I called immediately. We talked on the phone every night (no you hang up, no you hang up... o.k. on the count of three...) On one such call he asked me to go to Burning Man with him. I casually said yes while inside jumping up and down screaming. It was planned. I quit my job, packed all the necessities and headed up to Santa Barbara the Saturday before. August 27th, 2005 we packed up Bens van and that night headed out of Santa Barbara, Black Rock City bound. We fell, physically, in love on the road. Overnight in some truck-stop town.... Rolled into BRC Sunday night after midnight. We spent the week walking, biking across the desert and deeper and deeper into each-other. We stared at each-other and thought "where did you come from" he was him... the one I had waited for. Amazing. Saturday, September 3rd, 2005 we woke on top of his dusty van, in the middle of the Nevada desert and he said "do you wanna get married" and I said "sure". He wrote on the windshield "Wedding, 4 o'clock, the temple"... it was more perfect than any wedding we could have planned. We said our vows, mine about honor and listening and respect, his "I'm going to cook you the best food" SOLD! and he has. We waited several years for one to call the others bluff. Out of our pure, solid love came Chloë, two years later. Now she's almost two and today our love is four!